Speed

Well, for those of you that don't know we are having a boy in October! I didn't imagine that this would happen to me. Three kids is more than my arms can hold at one time, and more than I can keep track of. I just couldn't seem to get babies off my mind even though I really felt like I wasn't ready. So, I just decided to pray about it. I know that the Lord always gives good advice, and if He was prompting me to have another one than it was for good reason. I have always felt strongly that my girls came to me when they were supposed to even if I didn't think I was ready. I felt very strongly that it was time for #3 to come along. I talked it over with Tyler, and he also felt good about it. I have been very nervous about it, and questioning it. During general conference I heard a talk about how faith and fear are opposites. You can't have faith in something and fear it. So, I decided that I had faith everything would work out so I wouldn't fear anymore. I know that things will come together. I have always wanted my children to be close to each other, and so far the girls are very close and very excited to meet their brother.

I also never thought I would have a boy. The thought has always scared me a little bit. I don't know anything about boys. My brother always played babies and barbies growing up, and we rarely did boy things like camping or fishing or shooting. (Tyler says we are going to do these things, and after 4 years I still haven't been :) Little boys are adventurous and mischievous and I just don't know how they work. But, my motto as a mother is to take life one day at a time. Even if all I've accomplished at the end of the day is feeding, dressing, and taking care of the kids. I have faith that I can make this work, and maybe I'll just end up with a momma's boy:)

When I was 8 weeks pregnant, we hadn't said anything to anyone. Tyler and I were talking in our room when Alivia came in. She said to us "Jesus sent me a little brother. His name is Speed." She has told me on a few occasions that she has seen him and he is so cute. Tyler and I were in shock. We have always referred to this baby as he/him. We told Liv a few weeks later that we were having a baby, and she got to go with us to hear his heartbeat. She told the midwife that she was having a brother. I can't guarantee that we will name him Speed, but she insists that is his name. It may become his nickname though because she won't budge. Every time I find out what I'm having, I buy an outfit. Livi helped me pick out the outfit this time and I thought it was very fitting for Speed...